Yeah, 6 months and No competitive running yet

MMM...tut tap tut tap, it had been 6 months and i had not been into any running competition, it felt so different, reminiscing the days that i used to run almost every weekends, endless prep for any long distance run,

well i did my run for the past two days at the not so pristine anymore lake garden ,yeah thanks to the ongoing construction works even on Sunday perrgggg, having that feeling of mini LSD , hehee  and yet i can't make it after the fourth loops, my leg is still not strong enough to pull through, well i will keep on pushing till it is ready for it,

But nothing beat the adrenaline rush when u reached the goal u set daily, fuish, i like the feeling whenever u run, u get that elation running through your veins, watching the green all around you dispersing their precious O2 and the people that will look at you then smile and somewhere at the back of their mind , thinking that i am an athlete, which is not, but somehow honored by the look, hahahah perasan ler aku ni..Octoberian memang camtu....can't help it...

Yup, i'm not going to write again that the road is not easy, i'm hoping that it is but at least i could run again though not as fast i could back then but at least i could maintain my ideal body weight kan,

Recovering is not an easy peasy yer...so i'm just going to enjoy doing it....

Still Struggling, a long winding road ahead for me...

I had been running since my doctor said i'm fit to do so, however it had not giving the results i'm hoping for, this morning i started running at 6.00 am around lake titiwangsa ( my fav place for early jog) scenery pun ok plus the crowd pun leh thn jugak cuci mata jap..hehhe...back to my running, i did 10 minute stretching, then off to slow jog plodding my way around the lake outer circumference, thought of going really slow so that i could pickup my speed later but it seems that i'm stuck to that same speed, i can't lift my left foot higher without feeling some pain at my knee, i hate when that happen, tak pe teruskan ajer with the plod pace..

when i reached the second round, the pain started to increase causing my pace to be huru hara, i had to stop for a while, power walk a bit then started plodding again, habis sume makcik pakcik potong i , alamak malu ler pulak hehhe, ape nak wat, i guess i'm not ready yet for long distance yet, i did not exercised till it was Friday, i did a little run on the treadmill, 5 km ler jugak i tibai heheh,

Susah jugak nak recover yer, tak fair kan ..i ni baru jer lari setahun belum pun masuk setahun tapi dah sakit begini, really killed all hope of getting back into my passion, geram pun ade, but this my faith ,i'm not going to fight it instead embracing it, rehat jer lar....terima seadanyor je lar, this is my faith in running, nape ler yer...i hate it so much, can i change my leg instead, rasenyer macam tak bersyukur pulak , ramai lagi whom may not have the experienced that i had.....masalahnyer i'm always the one ended to having all of this kind of things, jatuh sampai kene jahit 20 stitches, pastu kene langgar motor mase naik basikal, org keje dapat bos best aku dapat bos yang macam hampeh, kawan lak asyik dok makan kawan jer, aiyo,,,,,,lar ni kene bedah lutut lak....
punah harapan ....meroyan pulak,,,anyway

Tough times dont last but tough people do....sometimes i rase dah nak give up running, i hate it that u been taken off the things u like to do...but that is life, i'm still fighting all my heart to be back on the road, doing what ever it takes to bring me back on the road....

There will be a lifetime of running...tak pe lar, lame kene tunggu, pun den tunggu ler...kalau tak den pi buat bedah lutut letak bosi ajor ler....tak dok lar sakit sakit lagi...

Happy Training To All......

Phobe to Run

The doctor had deliberated about my knee condition that i am fit again to run, wow, the strength training did paid off well, I was elated as ever hearing the doctor's diagnosis, smiling from ear to ear..looking at the field and the road, suddenly something struck in my mind.....

Though i had started jog extra mile but my speed and agility is not as before i was injured, i was reluctant to join any race though my condition fit me to be in that situation, i did wonder and ponder of what had happen to my passion in running, where it used to be ecstatic, mmm am i having a running phobia...!!!! cause i been avoiding to take part in any upcoming races even 5km race, it makes me terrified of what i would done to my knee...

Oh no...OMG...maybe the traumatic recovery had instilled the kind of mindset that competitive running will brought back to my knees again......i need to overcome this fear through improvising mental as well as my physical training before i'm fully confident again to be in competitive running...

Felt kind of left out here...everyone had broken their virginity in Marathon ..off course...maybe one day i will when the time is right....

Happy Training To All