Sunday, January 31, 2010

Losing The Joy

Yesterday and today , i started of running, thought of doing 10k - 5 loops around Lake Titiwangsa, woke up early that morning ,did myself a mix of sport drink then another for my bekal during the run, i like to be hydrated during long distance continuous run, arrived at the parking spot at about 6.30am, quite a number of people were there, oh ade event kaki pancing , no wonder people were reeling  theirs rods around the lake, well i'm all charged up for my first run...got my shoes on and my MP3 player pumping,, pushing on the tarmac...

Wow...i can run again...the feeling was great and like flying without wings ler...but the dreadful things started inching up my knee, alamak..it happens when i reached the third round and was about to finish the 4th loops, i was clueless..i thought its over...that i could happily run again it really hit my confidence very hard...and the thought of able to run again really got flushed away from my mind at that moment, the minute the pain arises i noticed that my pacing were a out of place, suddenly im not in control of left leg, it had become stiffed, huhh??

The frustration is running very high, i almost could not believe it, when will it be cured, ....i felt so depressed, nape yer....may be it could be running has become very personal to me kot, well for a start its what brought joy back to my gloomy life and the profound happiness, I kept on saying to myself u will get back to it in time, well not so good timing ler..cause there are quite a number of run's next coming month,

The Doc said i could get back to running its nothing serious... but why it kept on coming back, mm misterious indeed, i'll be seeing the Doc back again for definite answer on Why? and When? and i dont know how much longer should be resting from running, i'm not saying competition wise but the routine long distance  road running,...

Therefore, i'm planning to rest for some months ( god knows how long ler to get it cure or i should be getting a surgery instead), i would have to let go of my bibs, though its hardest thing to do ( cause this is the thing i loves so much to do) but i guess i didn't make the cut ,there are others who fare better than me and we should give him a chance, i just have to console to my own world now ...i will informed from time to time  about the bibs i'm letting go, as far i had now are Men's open : PNM 20k, Energizer 20k and Adidas Sundown 42k,

There goes my dream of running my first marathon in May...dah dapat bayangkan my first marathon wahh bestnyer....tapi....apakan daya, there are no quick fix here...i wish there were..

Felt so sad here, sometimes losing is the way to go, can't believe it myself saying those words that i do not champion ....Kudos to me and to all the others whom supported me all the way, I'll be running in the shadow  now ..hopefully not for long..sob sob...

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Initiating The First Gear of Running


I did what i had planned before - to start with a low impact activity, i choose stationary bike, nak dynamic bike x de lak kan, so i guess   this would do heheh, i did about 30 minutes cycling , felt that i'm not moving anywhere..yelar that why its called stationary bike ler Shaqi ..oops lupa,



what i means is that it did not have the kind of feeling u had after running, quite surprising that the hurts on my left knee seems to be reducing more and it had become more flexible than before, i'm not pushing myself too much till i'm fully ready , looking at the treadmill seems very tempting and tasty like kid eying for a candy


Itu ler PNM is coming, well my running buddies will be there, hopefully they don't grilled me if i'm late even i'm just doing 20km, run or walk....or may be.....

Monday, January 25, 2010

Solitary of Run's

I had been living away  from the running world for quite a while, it has been a week since  i injured my knee, as a matter of fact it still is, but slightly reduced....well not good for full running yet, i mean impact activities, plus works had started piling on the table, therefore running is squeezed somewhere in the closet, duhhh, 

im going to start introducing some cardio activities back this week, stationary bike may be?, well i like to take up swimming but the place and time yet to be synchro with schedule now,

i can see that i'm getting  a bit fat, after weighing myself in Singapore last weekend, gulp i gained 2 kg ler...alamak ini macam berat ka..i ought to do something fast, thinking of my knee is yet to be fully recovered thus brings in the idea of  less impact activities such as stationary bike, actually i'm  running out of ideas ler..anyway let do just that first and see what will it do to my knee...?

another race is coming next Feb. PNM. i'm not doing marathon yar..just 20 km jer...wishing that i could run all the way,,,rugi pulak x lari heheh,

Friday, January 22, 2010

Diagnosis : The result is in....and it is

I made an arrangement to meet the specialist , could not blame the GP cause they had not been trained to check on bones and its relations, an Orthopedic would do..begging my boss to let me off today while i'm practically working from home,

Arrived at Hospital Pusrawi, wow ..they had quite a number of Orthopedics, mine is Doc Azmi, he is quite a charming person, cheerful and glee to greet me, though i waited for almost an hour, takut ler what the outcome would be,

The doctor took my leg and started pressing on both side of my left knee...i quickly shown him the place which hurts so bad..Oh kat sini, ok cube berdiri then bend my leg, ok....what ok? Doc..well he can't confirmed just yet on the diagnosis, so off to the x ray room, i guess this is what athletes had to endure if they were down with injuries, banyak juga ler gambor yang di ambil, about 4 pcs of x ray photos ...nanti i upload yer...isk  they managed to make it un -X rated yer,,although the took a picture my hips,

went back to see the doctor.....mm looking at the X Ray now, is that my leg??..leh thn gak byk muscle ke lemak yer...and the result is....



Bursitis, fuhh lega ler ckit..ape ler tur..? by the way Doc said my ligaments are ok, no torn or inflamed, Doc said my tendon was rubbed against my bone, he did ask me how do u walk? ..i said with feet straight...or u should walk like this ler



macam charlie chaplin ke Doc?  Oh come on...habis ler ...

no ler , the way i walk and run are twisting my knee so due to my pronating foot thus i need to move my feet away from the 90 degrees angle, a bit wider, buka besar ckit ler...tapi org org tua cakap kalau jalan terkankang ckit itu tandanya boros, heheh..did not apply to me...Big Spender here...

the best thing is that Doc said i could run again, but i need to give it a rest for about two weeks, i guess i need to take running class ler lepas ni., he gave me some injection  due to the place had less veins making distribution of the medicine take longer to reach...

Now the pain still exist but it had reduce sharply however, the best part of it that i could still run...

No Gantung Kasut for me just yet Alhamdulilah






Thursday, January 21, 2010

Gantung Kasut

After reading a few articles on knee injuries, the thought of having to do what i fear most is seakan within sight sahaja, most of my friends whom were actives in sports during their uni years said they had to leave out sports for at least a year, i dont like that at all, today i went to another GP which i think is very much better than the fisrt one i met on Monday , pretty helpful in sharing her views on my situations unlike the first one's 3 min diagnose then came to conclusion u kene tanya pakar ler, oh gitu ler pulak...anyway.. i;ll be referring to a specialist this Friday, bile baca paper pulak there is one woman badminton player went for a surgeries and told to rest for 1 year..wow..that's is long, did i foreseen this in my fun running world ? well i never thought i would cause i'm in it for the fun of it...therefore gantung kasut should not be just yet..

currently, my knees still hurts whenever i walk too much, how much is too much ler kan, i;m not running or climbing stairs ,plus my work does not includes heavy mobility,,,yikes reading and browsing people wrote about how fun it is to  run NB 30km..i felt so intimidated and ashamed, mine left with an injuries ler...well a token of my will to finish cause i'm no quiter,,,No Gantung Kasut for me....

Monday, January 18, 2010

Self Prognosis

Am i having this?

chondromalacia?
The treatment of chondromalacia remains controversial, but most individuals can undergo effective treatment by resting the knee and adhering to a proper physical therapy program. Allowing the inflammation of chondromalacia to settle is the first step of treatment. Avoiding painful activities that irritate the knee for several weeks, followed by a gradual return to activity is important. In this time, cross-training activities, such as swimming, can allow an athlete to maintain their fitness while resting the knee. The next step in treatment is a physical therapy program that should emphasize strengthening and flexibility of the quadriceps and hamstring muscle groups. Use of nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory medication is also helpful to minimize the pain associated with chondromalacia. Treatment with surgery is declining in popularity for two reasons: good outcomes without surgery, and the small number of patients who actually benefit from surgical treatment.

or this

patellar tendonitis?
Patellar tendonitis is the condition that arises when the tendon and the tissues that surround it, become inflamed and irritated. This is usually due to overuse, especially from jumping activities. This is the reason patellar tendonitis is often called "jumper's knee."
When overuse is the cause of patellar tendonitis, patients are usually active participants of jumping-types of sports such as basketball or volleyball. Patellar tendonitis may also be seen with sports such as running and soccer. Also, some patients develop patellar tendonitis after sustaining an acute injury to the tendon, and not allowing adequate healing. This type of traumatic patellar tendonitis is much less common than overuse syndromes.

or may be

Bursitis ?
 A bursa is a slippery structure that exists in places where tendons pass over bones. These spots are points of potential friction if the tendons were to rub against the bone. The body creates a bursa where tendons rub over a bone to allow the tendons to glide smoothly. When the bursa is inflamed and irritated, bursitis is the result.

yikes it alls boils downs to surgery..alamak..macam serious jer..could this be..i'll be off running like in months...waaaa tak dak suke ler ini macam...well we'll see in 5 days...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Post NB Pacesetters 30km run

Well what u think is enough is never is...here goes....

I woke up very early in the morning at 3.30 am lagi, i just can't sleep anxious and restless i guess, after watching Blind Side , feeling kind of hype and happy...it could be the stories is about a unpolished football star....
made myself some endurance drinks which i bought from the sale at GNC as a substitute for solid food or i will have indigestion problems later during the run,  i was very very nervous about the run since my running buddies are all very very senior in long distance run, i ni jer yang rookie hehehe plus some tormented mental picture about the torturous routes, tapi pelik ramai yang kata Ok jer...memang Power ler depa tur...

Reached the Bukit Aman carpark at 4.00 am, gile awal, there are only few cars parked there, dtg awal sebab takut penuh then Abg Syah arrives then Diket n frenzs, prep ourselves then we moved to Padang Merbok met up with Bro Ian, Nick and Kak Kash, masing masing look surprisingly calm, aku jer kot yang mengelabah ayam heheh, entah ler...i guess u will know why...in the end

since the run will start way about half an a hour before the fajr prayer, i  went some shopping yesterday and bought myself a three quarter running pant instead, hehhe so senang ler nak solat, the run start exactly at 5.30 am, as usual u had to walk until u passed the starting arch. We were running in the dark around the  Tugu Negara, i was pacing together with kak Kash as usuall Bro Ian, Nik, Diket and Shuk (makan asap depa jer lar aku ni) having trouble running with pouch kept jumping to much causing uneasiness during the run thn je lar kalau  i had to carry the bottle all the way, penat gak tur....

my pacing was ok jer, mungking sbb dah wat LSD kat situ so that i was a little bit prepared ler on how the route will be thus making it a little bit easy ler, my legs was still ok, in my mind at that time just as we about to reach Jalan Duta was?..mm fajr praying time is about to be over, i engaged on a faster pace, remember abg syah said they planned to peform their fajr prayer at Petronas's Hartamas ( dah sorok kain katanyer..i wonder camner ler dia wat yer??)as for me as soon i saw a surau at nearby terus masuk, tak jadi ke Petronas, mula mula rasa macam malu to enter the surau, was due to the fact that they were having Tazkirah session tibe tibe jer aku masuk dgn keadaan berpeluh sakan nak solat subuh,,,???after solat i was back on track, on high gear to catch up the time lost (should i say gain in a positive way) on my back to Bukit Tunku routes i was mentally downed, the uphill round was a bit too much on my feet , it started to twitch i hate when that happens i the middle of the kilometers, yikes....i took my ORS salt as Che would said dah terlewat ler Bro...

whenever i stops a while the strained and pulled in the muscles were getting stronger i hated when that happened, kept on pushing myself, chanting the mantra u must finish this run and the worst started to happen- i can't no longer run even though i had the energy to blast me to the moon ,my knee and muscle were pulling me downed and begging me to slow down, i did , what i never did at any road races, power walk or literally walk..no use to stretch the muscle at this point while u still have another 20 km to go, the double hill at Bukit Tunku really stretched my knees and muscle to the limit, when it comes to the Jalan Mahameru i knew i could not go on anymore up the hill climb, i decided to power walk instead and constantly crying and praying to Almighty please let me finish this race,

planned to run the last leg of the race at Padang Merbok stretch but my muscles were not letting me flexed too much so i power walk instead, felt ashamed looking at the older woman and men passed by me, who cares this my race against me, i should be able to reach the finish line in time, there are only a few 30 km runners at that time and i was left far behind, even though i had the energy to run but my muscle resist cooperate with my heart instead power walk all the way, the last stretch pun bukit , aiyo

lega rasenyer when crossing the finish line, syukur sgt, i did not gave up due to my injuries, i was so frustrated and saddened by my time and the condition I'm in, actually i did cried in my car when Bro Ian left ( cry baby kan i ni..a way to express my deepest frustration kot) after we had some brief chat while waiting for his friends, Not just because of the pain but the fact that i had failed to achieved my target,

I had ditched out my friend wedding instead treat myself for a karaoke session with close friends

I am ashamed of myself and not proud at all with this race...well this will be a major lesson for me,to know my limits...

Final Verdict : time 3 hr 34 mins, surprisingly no leaking problems but end up with massive blow on the knees, will i ever be ready for marathon ? I guess u know the answer..

Friday, January 15, 2010

Out of Steam..puuut puuut....puff puff puff

Bunyinyer macam steam engine ran downed jer..well something really smacked my brain now, feeling little bit under , still have not found the momentum needed for my work..isk dah masuk second week in the new year,...itu ler semangat tak masuk masuk lagi ni....

entah ler ..i'm still confused ape ler yang membuatkan aku lembab ni....Shaqi please...wake up....!!!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Do. It(eat) .Enough. Though (D.I.E.T) .....The M'sian Way

Tahun ni adalah tahun untuk menurunkan berat badan..kalau boleh ler....akan tetapi , i will always be swarmed with foods..so angan angan mat jenin ler.. nak jugak keting kenyan tur..hehehe...

dah memacan website g checkout tapi kebanyakkan nyer mat saleh nyer style.. dah menjadi satu kepayahan pulak selera nak makan...ape halibut salad..poach salmon..siap sayur dia pun leh thn terbelit jugak ler lidah jawa aku ni nak menyebutnyerr...

Sbb mkn kat luar...i mean during lunch time...u tend to go by the foods that been served at the cafe ...sometimes tu.....sayur haprak pun x de...macam cafe depan opis aku ni...kekadang tu ade...tapi masak lemak ler pulak...terpaksa aku me'strain kan nyer dulu...satu keje lar pulak...

itu ler....bile ler....fitness kat Malaysia ni nak berotakkan Asia or better still Malaysianise it...so that leh ler kite ikut, sume nak kene ikut depa nyer mould susah gak...i do agrees the Westeners are the best in this fields  however when it comes to diet i think it should be personalised ler.....karang meraban lak nak cari ikan Salmon ...sekali..ha amik ubat... pengsan tgk harga sekilo....

itu ler..any suggestion ke? daily nutrition needs or menu for runners.....like me...heheh :)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Redah Je lar Gamaknyer...

since i kind of injured myself a bit ler kot during my LSD,,lepas tu hentam lak..trail running in Broga, i been very cautious in overusing my leg's muscle...i am thinking of doing just 5 km every day in the morning.jer since i can't afford (malas pun ade gak hehe) the time..to hit the road or the gym in the evening...felt so intimidated looking at Kak Kash nyer training plan fuhh very extensive memeng Pelari Tegar lerr...

May be i should be doing just that...apo ler aku ni isk isk isk... ni tak leh jadi ni! Nak kene tambah kose kude lagi ni...hopefully what i did thus far will be enough for this Sunday...some of them are taking it as an LSD for upcoming PNM wow....Pelari Tegar betul uolzz..

This will be my first 30km ...hopefully i could enjoy the run this Sunday,,,it will be the turning point whether i am ready for my maiden marathon or not......

Monday, January 11, 2010

My very first LSD..:)

last weekend was nothing short of running ajer...did my first LSD, fuhh Long Slow Distance run, tapi rasnyer macam berlari bersungguh sungguh hehhe, anyway my pacing was all over the place, it could due to my thigh was aching from my Squash training on Friday, itu ler kind of bored...that evening lyn squash lar kejap...that night sakit sgt my left leg..mm dah ler esok LSD lak tur...itu ler bak kata Diket jadi Pelari Tegar ni susah nak tolak perlawaan heheh, i slept with some hope that my leg will be healed and the msucle will be able endured some LSD,

Alhamdulilah that Saturday, my leg seems to be in somewhere/how/what in good shape to run, i did not waste any time, took a quick shower then packed up my things then off to the Bukit Aman Carpark ( dlm hati dok kata dekat mane ler Carpark tu yer...???rupenyer yang depan Masjid tu rupenyer)..meet up with Bro Nik and i went stright to the Mosque for our fajr Prayer, over there we met Diket and friends..not forgetting Abg Shuk...i brought along my brand new water bottles filled with my brand new sports drinks..(beli pun sbb ade sale kat GNC hari tu...the salesgirls said to me everytime marathon mesti orang akkan cari ni) mm cube ler mane tahu leh dpt kose kude lebih...more horsepower (hp) ...sekali....

kene tinggal dar... before Daud decide to make a u turn after meeting Fong and Bacin , i was left behind quite a distance, i am no where near their pace since the start of the run, aiyo manyak kose kude ler depa ni, i guess i'm still rookie in this long distance run, i switched on my mental lamp "to finish is to win"...therefore i kept on my own sweet pace, i can't chat though no one to talk to anyway thus listening  to my trusted MP3 player switching songs that could motivate me to go on,...we made our route through bank negara-bukit tunku then to hartamas...Abg Syah said route ni kalau on Sunday penuh dengan runners doing LSD, ....ye lar rookies runner ler i ni kan ... we stopped for a while by Petronas hartamas for a quick refuelling then off to the road again..

On the way back to lake perdana. Actually i was in deep pain but i just could not stopped, i dont want to slow them down just because of me...i'm kept on drinking..managed to refill by bottle with Gatorade courtesy of Abg Shuk, there is enough energy and strength to keep on moving...i was left very far behind the pack, at a point i was about to quit judging by the state of pain i'm in, no sore no gain.....our last lap nearby Bukit Tunku i was accompanied by Abg Shuk, ade jugak member yang slow jugak or else i'll be left alone to finish the run, alamak macam tak biasa ler pulak...

overall the LSD was fun and enlighting, made me realise what state i'm in right now for the upcoming NB 30km..gulpppp...burnt : 1700 calories, timing 2 hr 22 min...distance entah ler can someone tell me???

 Next day...Sunday...Broga Hills .....

Friday, January 8, 2010

Runners Lets Us Compete To Be as One

I hate reading the news todays , can't help but felt sad about what happen to the church today, tambahan its near to my housing area, Wondering hard? what had happen to my beloved place there,used to very peaceful and harmony, some people may like or some may cursed me for writing this on my blog, i just can't help it bu to write something about it, well for a start i'm not a very religious person that doesnt mean i'm abandoning my Islamic way of living and teachings , well there are here bounded to my soul and embebed in my heart...a muslim runner

being a runner means that u get to run with your favorite buddies regardless of their background, although we are competing against each other on the road but we share more common blues of the running world.. as such...aiya auntie mane mahu register itu run yer in Klang or be it competing in the neighbouring ade tempat tinggal kat mane yer cheap ones or uncle samy u very teror ler kaki byk muscle ler..and the usuals aiyo kaki banyak sakit ler...kuku kaki pun sudah biru...that hills damn &*(&*) ape ler organiser ni nak bunuh kiter ke!!!! then lepak mamak/kopitiam/gerai ...share stories about our tribulation of finishing the race..kan the common things...we share, us as runners, plus exchanging words of wisdom, training plan, motivation and praises....isk never knew running could actually brought us together.....kan.....common grounds are often forgotten

please ramming each other,,would not solve anything...to hell with all of those whom instilled hatred to each other...lets runned them down...

Perbankan Milage,,,macam tak cukup jer?

mmm...im not clocking enougg hhh milage this week ,baru 17km, mm luckily there is LSD this saturday,terasa semacam takut lak fikirkan it will be 30km along tortorous route ler kan, knowing Pacesetters kan, mmm..unlike Sgpore where the route is almost flat but here around KL, almaklum ler..mesti pusing bukit berkali kali.....itu ler Shaqi, stop complaining and start running...push yourself...mm tapi perut asyik penuh jer biler time lari pancit ckit and M bug ni cbuk ler nak masuk...syuhh syuhh pi main jauh jauh,,,
for the past few days we had been treated with so many snacks in the office...yummy but sometimes i could just be binged...haaa kate nak lean body...mmmm

i been having this mood killers ler every time before run, ape ler na jadi ni....i just had to drag myself ...rase macam malas sangat tapi bile dah lari x nak stop pulak...hehe additive macam ICE,...kene ade training plan...so far my training plan this week...masih lagi on schedule...hehehe on route to that dreamed body,,,heheh leh ke??

i wish i will not be smoked this saturday but i know i will be,,,,,hehehe

Monday, January 4, 2010

Varicose Veins, that's what it called...will it stop me.?

Varicose veins are swollen, twisted veins that you can see just under the surface of the skin. These veins usually occur in the legs, although they also can form in other parts of the body- definition taken from National Heart Lung and Blood Institute website,

Weak or damaged valves in the veins can cause varicose veins. One-way valves inside the veins open to let blood flow through and then shut to keep blood from flowing backward. If the valves are weak or damaged, blood can back up and pool in your veins. This causes the veins to swell.
I had it on my right leg, sometimes it gives me the freak jugak , i only realised it since i started losing weight in 2008, its hereditary things, my mother had it on her leg, i just found out about this since Bro Ian said to me that my condition is cureable, well when i read about it, mm i found some interesting facts about it....the way to prevent it...are to avoid sitting or standing for long periods, stay active, lose weight (if you're overweight), avoid tight clothes and high heels, and wear compression stockings if your doctors advises you to...

but there are some negative effect of which i do have such as mild swelling of your ankles and feet; painful, achy, or "heavy" legs; throbbing or cramping in your legs especially after run; itchy legs; and discolored skin in the area around the varicose vein. Sometimes dermatitis, an itchy skin rash. What i am afraid most is that Varicose veins also can lead to superficial thrombophlebitis. This refers to a blood clot that occurs in a vein that's at the surface of the skin.

would it stop me,? Hopefully it would not ,cause running what makes and shapes me, i shall overrun this...

State of Preparation for NB 30km

Gulp, another 14 days before i embark into my first 30k, mmm entah ler, mase daftar i was ever so elated and high spirited to do it, now a felt so belittle and afraid that i might not able to..... huaaahhh :( , the hours put in the training i still far from my other running buddies, berangan lak nak wat marathon this May...lepas tu lak ade lak geng ajak g panjat gunung Kinabalu.pastu.perrghh...

apamacam ni... try to do my own LSD, what heppeng ler kan, i ran until 1 hour and 30 mins then poof, dah ler x de pace measurement device, so terkira- kira bape ler aku wat tadi? Well most of it is done at my own backyard in Melawati, not bad ler the route i chosed to run, lari punya lari palnned route pun entah kemane ler...sekejap nak lalu kat kawasan ni...ade anjing lak so ikut hati ler lalu jer lar....the route i took was never less generous of hills ler, sana sini...bikin pancit ler jugak......even though it makes me burn about 1400 calories may not be enough mileage to be called an LSD kot..... got to push even more further, thinking of making another at least 3 hours of running, ye lar 1 hr 30 min pun mak aku dah cakap amboi lamanyer hang lari..kalau 3 jam mahu kot dia tepon polis lak..heheheh:))..............

To start is halfway finish ...so Push harder bro....Just Do It (bak kater Nike)