I wanna Run Run Run....

Training after training...... had been for several months now after the surgery and yet my legs are not strong enough to carry me over the 10k marks pain free, sigh.....  Breathing techniques baru dah cube, 5 steps inhale then 5 steps exhale yet it felt so hard to achieve the targeted loops of the day. Worst still, the pain i had to endure on both thigh is like as if  i was having a cramp and my leg literally beg me to stop while the brain did not register that (hang ..kejap). Is it the knee or the thigh? I had to stop a couple of times to power walk kejap then continue on running. Sometimes, i did felt like giving up and forgoing my targeted loops for the day. Being a stubborn person (degil), I kept on going till i reached the targeted loops of the day regardless of the pain.

My staple road running nowadays ,would be a 3 loops around Bukit Jalil Park, ever since i moved into my new pad, it seems very convenient. 3 loops completed in "as fast" as i could manner. I did not had any time limit. Through Mapmyrun, the route of which I took is about 2.3 km. Therefore, i should be completing about 6.9 km. Too bad , the pain usually strikes in whenever i reached around 2.0 km, I felt so frustrated and at the same time puzzled, what I did wrong this time, I did stretched and quite well hydrated , api lagi yang tertinggal ler??? Sakit hati gak bila tgk uncle and aunties overtaking you, isk tak patut tak patut. This is my dilemma now? How could i be ready ,even 10k pun tak boleh lepas lagi ni....mmm ..berangan nak buat marathon tahun ini.

Sometimes i even felt some pain whenever i am ascending the stair, ayoo..macam orang tua lor. Takkan ler once broken consider sold out....waaaa :(   tidak...I had to find some solutions to this problem, A chiropractor...mm ..koyak ler poket...that will be my last resort...

I'm not gonna give up till I reach my first marathon mile. I will keep on training until my muscle and ligaments (hoping so badly) are ready for the challenge. I don't wanna give up running , please Allah let me run again, i want to be with running friends..please...i want to feel the air beneath my leg again , it felt so good....i wanna felt that way again...

May be i should enroll myself in running clinic...yukkkk pergi....I wish i could be as fortunate as the others...ada hikmah di sebalik setiap dugaan....praying hard that i could run my first marathon this year....

Happy Training To All...kalau jumpa si siput ni jangan ler asapkan dia yer...hehehe

Undecided, However, determine..Yichalal

That is the perfect phrase to describe what i am feeling now. Yup, Its already 2011 where my running plan should be in place. Owing the fact that i had suffered terribly in Teluk Intan, which is not even close to a marathon mileage. I had doubted my fitness level in competing for long distance endurance run.

Wow, it is that hard to be back in shape after surgery. Well, Yichalal, if u think u could then u can achieve. I dont regret having the surgery, ada hikmah disebalik setiap peristiwa.

I would not be entering any competition until i am fully ready. The journey is tough but i'm not quiting.

Happy Training To All :)

Time fly ?? -Reflecting 2010

Wow, what a year it was for me, it started off bad, i remembered the first run of the year, NB 30KM which took away my ligament, ACL to be exact. Ouch, later it moves on to be a very emotional ride indeed for me, the very thing that eludes me from my emotional trouble...was taken away from me. Not giving up,trying solutions after solutions given by fellow RBU(s) and end up with inevitable recondition surgery.

The surgery was done based on my eagerness to be back fast on track. Therefore, opting for it was the only way as advised by the Doctor that i would be able to be back on track faster. Instead, it turn out to be a very very long vacation from any competition. Take it like a man  Bro, well i did, though it was hard as if i am losing the love of my life. Recovery was not an easy thing to endure. I did not recommend it to any other person whom loves this sport. Prevention is the key not recovery.

Training during recovery is very hard since a little pain in the joint would be predicated. You were constantly in a state of unknown, clueless to be precised, not knowing whether is it normal or not ? and How far are u willing to endured it ? I continued on jogging and slowly progress into running, building mileage from 3km to 6 km and cross training in between.

However, the training was not enough to take on the mighty 63 km in 12 hr Rogaining at Teluk Intan, i was downed with an injured leg. Maybe i was pushing too hard to the extend not even realising that i was hurting myself. Thus far, i had not sign up for any runs yet as i am not confident of my own strength , even to run 10km. With Godwill and I could run pain free then i would consider joining back the competition scene.

Sometimes things happen for a reason, not all things were sober for me this year. I managed to move in to my new house, my new Bach pad, i guess,  huhu. It had always been my dream to own a house which i eventually did. Thanks to my mom and dad for making my dream possible. Rekindle back my friendship with old buddies and trekking the world outside. Venturing into baking bizzz...

Hoping for a better future lies ahead though things would not be easy.....keep on striding ahead..

Happy New Year To All , May this coming new year we would be blissful and be filled with great things.

Keep on burning those rubber soles.

Non Impact Cardio

I had always avoided from working out on a non impact cardio machine such as the elliptical bike. It could be due to lack in the running feeling. A few days, back i tried the new elliptical bike at my new refurbished office gym and to my surprise wow..u can burn a lot of calories on it...perggg i was sweating like a pig (ok ke?) burning almost 500 calories by doing 40 minutes on the preset workout program installed in the bike system.

The plus point is that it was really gentle on my knees. I felt so liberated ....I recommended it to those whom in recovery like me, you are not undermining yourself , in fact u are helping yourself to recover much faster than you think. Remember ya uolz...your ligament grows at a very slow slow slow rate yar.... the fastest is six month. Sangat...so that why lar, you see those sportsman when they said they had ligament issues ,they were put to rest immediately.

Phobia ke uolzz...yes you should be, cause the reality is tough, so better check yourself. Techniques are the key also. So let go non impact, i wish there are non impact shoes as well so i would not bust another knee in another race.

Happpy Training You All 

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Sadness? What would you do?

I felt frustrated with my life....everything is falling apart...and why am i writing it here...cause i just don't know how to express it.......and what would you do when u feel downed.........:(

In Life somethings are not meant to be yours....

I wish i have it as much as i had other things in my life now.......its up to God whether i will be or not.....that's life...u can't have it all.......